Heart Attack

By:  Wyshona

A great white shark

            attacks from   

                  B

                   E

                   L

                   O

                   W

 a swift slam—a fatal maim

and then it swims

a        r        o       u       n       d

and waits for the prey to die.

You came from the  d

                                e

                                p

                                t

                                h

                                s

jaws wide open and—

                        HIT

before I knew what

had happened.

A gasp. My heart

Fluttered.  Sped.

A taste.  A gnaw.

Prey?

I struggle to stay afloat

while you decide if I’m

worthy of you.

I pray.

Not prey.

You surface for a

moment, and I see

those black, soulless

eyes.  You stare at

me.  Many call you

monster, but is that

what I see?

You swim away with

shreds of my flesh and

muscle between your

teeth; my bones in your

gullet; my heart lost.

I am left.

Bereft.

Broken.

Bleeding.

Hand to heart,

while I try to

tread the water

of life as you

leave me in

your wake.

Fall 2013

Revised Spring 2014

Inspired by the Song "Thought of You" - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OBk3ynRbtsw

I woke up and

Wished that I was dead

With an aching in my head

I lay motionless in bed.

I thought of you

And where you’ve gone,

And the world

Spins madly on.

My sweet man

That man whose heart

I so wanted

Whose touch

I longed for

Whose kind eyes

Whose sweet, sweet face

All, distant,

Away from me

Never.

Never at all

Anything to do with me.

** 

Thinking of you

As you lay on your side

Head cradled

Look up at me

As I softly walk

Away

Wishing for your arms

Reaching,

Something you did in the dark

Once

As I loved you

But never because you

Loved me.

I feel the slash

Of your absence --

White hot at

The memory of each piece of you, back then.

Dull aching like

A past blow to the temple --

As surely as if

You being gone

Were here today,

My reality.

I know it is coming.

I watch the stars

From my windowsill. The

Whole world is moving

And I’m standing still.

(2013)

A Thousand Years

That song rips it out of me:

All that I failed to do

All I wanted to help him do

All the things we used to talk about

In the beginning.

I have loved you

For a thousand years

And that’s what it feels like.

Now I’ve shoved free

Sails open

And it hurts.

On to a new life

On to white walls and teaching every day

Close to my family

Warm weather and all things

New.

Help me to have hope.

Maybe

With this on paper

I have moved forward

One small step.

(early 2013)